Separated, alone
In my hospital bed
Struggling for breath
About to wed
My death
All alone,
Is it my sad fate to die alone?
O my loved ones,
What can I leave you
But my fainting
In a painting
The etch of a sketch
The words of a wretch
The pain of my sin
the love that may win
the confusion of earth
at the height of its mirth?
O my Creator have mercy
May the world that is breaking
At your cross find healing.
Masks peering
As I face the inevitable dusk
I contemplate and ask,
Am I steady,
Am I ready?
Will I finally nest with the dove of peace
hold that moonbeam I reject or miss
Dream of many rainbows peaking
snuggle safely in God’s sweet kiss?
This is so sudden -
Just yesterday like a glutton
I was scouring the news
Then you came without warning
Invisible enemy Infecting
Exploding
We tremble with fear
Away from loved ones so dear.
You emptied our churches
Now hunger lurches
only ghosts walk the streets
we have lost all our wits
No cure for this sickness.
Ventilators abounding
Masked faces alienating
No one’s smiling
Only hungry lines increasing
The economy’s rapidly decreasing.
I feel my lungs collapse to my knees
I beg for intubation,
For a bit of a breath
For a chance here on earth.
O God Help me
Wash me
I beg you hover,
Hover over me
O Divine restorer!
Am I ready anytime
When the death bells chime
To boldly fly away
Beyond the sway of that Eagle
In relentless pursuit of its prey
On the wings of a seagull
To the vanishing mist of the sky
With the sails of my God
Who gave his life on the skull
Without even asking why?
I’m not ready.
To my right a man is gasping
To my left a woman stopped asking
I am slowly wasting
Wondering -
My loved ones, what can I leave you?
just the fainting
In my painting?
The etch of a sketch
The words of a wretch?
The pain of my sin?
The love that will win
The hope of God’s peace
the love that we’ll miss
If we’re far from his embrace.
Today I discovered
I have recovered
I cry with gratitude
And a new attitude
I clap and thank my hero
In this horrible ground zero.
Thank you Lord
For another day in this season
A new life for a reason.
Written by Jessie Fuentes
